running lately…

this post is long overdue.

like way long overdue.

like i’ve been rolling it around in my head for at least a month now.

so let’s just get to it…

i haven’t been running much lately.

and i certainly haven’t been running enough for someone who is supposed to run her first half marathon on saturday.

when my half marathon training plan started, i was pumped. i was also doing the runner’s world run streak and seriously kicking a**.

i got through about the first 4 weeks of my training plan, and then i got sick.

i didn’t blog much about it, but i had some pretty awful stomach issues pretty constantly through june & the beginning of july.

so that led to not running much (or doing much of anything except laying on the couch/in bed and trying not to poop my pants, actually). (sorry, t.m.i.?)…

in fact, i ended up taking 3 weeks off from my training plan. i ran a couple times in there, but every run was maybe 1-2 miles and did not end well.

so that brings us to the middle of july.

in an attempt to get back “on track” with my training plan, i did all of my runs one week, cutting down the shorter ones to 2-3 miles since i hadn’t been running, but then figuring that i needed to at least try to get in my 8 mile long run that was on the training plan if i was going to have any chance at all of not dying during this half marathon.

in hindsight, this was probably not a good idea.

the run took me forever and pretty much crushed any optimism i had that i’d be able to pull off the half right now.

i struggled majorly to run the 8 miles. lots of walking breaks. lots of thoughts of quitting. ending up walking the last mile home.

it wasn’t fun.

i still didn’t completely give up though, for about a week after those 8 miles, i kept up with my mid-week runs.

but they didn’t feel good.

i was in a pretty major workplace accident about 7 years ago when i worked in a factory for a summer during college. my left ankle was hurt really badly and i always have to be careful not to “anger” it now.

i think a combination of not easing back into running after taking that 3 week break and not listening to my body until it was too late, led to to it acting up. i didn’t “re-injure” it, but the past few runs have hurt. kind of a lot. it doesn’t hurt very much while i’m running, but the soreness afterward is pretty brutal.

biofreeze is my new best friend.

after thinking about it a lot, i have decided not to run the half marathon on saturday.

i don’t want my first (maybe only) experience running a half marathon to be completely awful. i want to go in at least being properly trained. i know things can still go wrong if you train well, but i’m pretty much guaranteeing a bad experience with my current level of running. also, i know my ankle will thank me. i’m honestly not sure how it would handle 13.1 miles in its current state.

so there you go.

that’s why i won’t be running a half marathon this weekend.

i’m hoping there will be one in my plans in the future, but if not, i’m ok with that too.

i had a really hard time coming to this decision and an even more difficult time putting it out here on the blog. i know most of you probably didn’t even remember/care that i was planning to run a half marathon this weekend and i could have just not mentioned it again and pretended it never happened, but  i definitely want to be 100% honest.

it’s really difficult for me to admit that i failed at something. i hate that i wasn’t able to complete my training like i should have. i am so so so bummed that i won’t be running my first half marathon this summer. but, i will suck it up and move on.

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i’m trying to keep it upbeat, but i’m pretty bummed about all of this.

tell me something that will cheer me up please!

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p.s. one more day to enter my adora chocolate giveaway!

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